$ Spent today: 0.00
1 Frugal thing I did today: Using powdered creamer
1 Minimalist thing I did today: Cleaned out a glass cannister for a hostess gift
So
here I am on day 1 and I found out I am a terrible planner. Or forgetful. It’s
the first day of my fabulous 5 day weekend! What is my most favorite thing to
do? Drink coffee in the mornings at my
kitchen nook and watch the sunrise. Coffee makes me get out of bed. Well,
as I went to get my creamer out of the fridge, I realized; I forgot to buy my
usual 2 organic half and half creamers! Although,
creamer is on my budget list. I am going to stick to my guns and try not to
spend a cent. I have powdered creamer just for these types of emergencies and
for camping. So its powdered creamer until next budget shop.
This
morning my cousin Ursula invited me over to her house on Friday. Old
anti-social Cyndie would not have gone. But I am ecstatic to go and spend time
with ----- MY FAMILY! Its what I want, Its what I asked God for. So its not on
my terms and they did not show up on my doorstep how I always wish. I cant always having things on MY terms. I
love my family and I am going.
So
of course I do not want to go empty handed. I thought of a lovely idea. So to
minimize my home I have really cleaned and washed out a beautiful glass
cannister to use as a hostess gift. I no longer need it and its just taking up
space. What I do with it will be part of my Day 3. More to come.
The
next 2 days are crucial. 1. I will be leaving the house and that always gives
me the urge to drink for some reason. 2. I will be with family and what is our
main hobby? Drinking. My niece already spoke of mimosas at 11. I did let Ursula
know I don’t drink. I know both my brother’s and Ursula’s family will certainly
not pressure me once I state I do not drink. It is me. I am not worried I will.
Not at all. I will just have to “be”
with my family and “sit” will all the feelings. With no alcohol buzz to numb
the “whatever”. That will be interesting. I just never been around my family
sober before. Especially Ursula, she is like my sister. My drinking sister. We
are like 2 peas in a pod. I have some of the best cherished memories with her,
unfortunately we were extremely inebriated for them all. And I am not saying
being with my family is an issue. Or unhealthy. It is me. I have an issue being
close to anyone. If I get too close I put up walls or sabotage it any way I
can. I don’t think God is testing me. I
think he is just showing me, I can do this. And he is throwing the hard stuff
at me right away so that the rest is
cake. When I am uncomfortable my flight or flight kicks in, no that’s not a
typo. To be good to myself I will have to sit with the uncomfortable feelings
if there are any as a Sober Cyndie. At 60 I am going to have to grow up.
Or I can be making a big deal out of nothing
and I will probly have the most wonderful time with my family. I am thankful to
God for these opportunities.
