Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Running! Trail running in training.

Crabapple Run 7/23/11

My personal yoga triathlon training has been going so well, I ran a 5K last Saturday!  I ran in my wonderful town Sunday, it was very pleasant. So I was perusing the up coming 5K races and The Ellicottville Trail run intrigued me, the 4 mile not the 12! So I have decided to train for that. Can I do it? And then it dawned on me, I have the BEST trainer sitting in my home. My Nordic Track Incline trainer as all the trails in the US programmed into it. I checked the times for last years 4 mile trail run and it looks do-able for me.  I did 2 1/2 miles today, and it didn't seem too bad. I think I got the running bug!

Training for the Ellicottville Trail Run in 2 weeks

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

My triathlon

So what has not drinking done for me? FREEDOM! Not only am I having an absolutely awesome stay-cation, I think I will create my own triathlon. I was reading about this awesome military race that includes weight lifting running obstacles and the kitchen sink and a bug just crawled up my ass, so I said to myself, Myself, what would you really enjoy if you were training for this race? So yesterday I started my own modified training, I did 45 minutes of yoga, then I ran 2 miles on the treadmill, and then I did P90X shoulder & arms and ab ripper, yes and I felt great, and I am going to do it again in a few minutes. After a while, you won't recognize me! I do the yoga for mental and spiritual transformation, the running so I can do not only more 5ks but I want to run to the lake and back as my goal and I think that is 8 or more miles. Need to track that. The weights for strength and to sculpt me into lusciousness!

And yesterday, when I was doing triceps curls I looked over and because I have been eating so healthy, I saw my stomach!

My goal is to do one or more of those crazy races like the warrior dash or dirty girl mud run,
But I REALLY want to do the civilian military race. It's a goal!

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Follow your bliss

Would have been my FIRST love? Do you always trust your first initial feeling, special knowledge holds true bares believing.....

Oh how our youth and shyness stole from us. What would have been if we weren't so proud?
If you would have been my first love, I am certain you would have been my only love.
The tenderness and the very strong desire is still there after so many years and memories without you.
 If only we could. If I could follow my bliss, YOU would be my bliss...even after all these years? Yes.

I copied this painting in pen and ink in intricate detail for art class in high school and in the tree I hid your initials R.T.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

The come to Jesus talk

Well it’s taken me a long time to get here and I got here kicking and screaming. Over the years I have slowly realized that it is the best thing for me. Although I KNOW I am so much fun as a drunk, I have quit drinking for a while. Why? Because alcohol turns me into an asshole. I have been doing very well getting myself together spiritually, thru soul searching and yoga. Yoga has been life changing for me for the last several years. I just need to stick with it and commit to it, at the end of this is a link to a talk by Tim Miller that has convinced me to do yoga as daily as I can. I don/t know how else to describe how transforming yoga is. Those that are yogis know exactly what I am talking about .

I have been growing in leaps and bounds and when I am feeling confident I hear some great music on the radio on the way home, I have some wine or beer or I go out with friends…….I must be allergic to alcohol. I do not like the person I become I say stupid things and send stupid emails to people that should not be in my life any way. .

So now that I am more clear headed, and yoga brings up all that is toxic in you and gets rid of it. But it gives me such clarity about the choices I make and the people I allow into my life. I don’t mean this in a full of myself way, but as one grows, some friendships diminish. And others thrive. I am very careful who I allow into my life. I have gone pretty much thru hell to get here, I will not throw it away by being influenced by people that do not have the same integrity that I am learning. Drinking made me lose my discernment and allowed me to befriend some people of lesser values. People that are just out for a good time, all the time. My life is more important to me than that. I respect people like Iyanla Van Zant and Ana T Forest, whose books I have read/reading. (and Donna Farhi, Wayne Dyer, Denise Linn, I can go on......)

I am LOVING my life! This has been the best spring and summer of my life and I almost lost it all because I thought I could drink, or hang out with “good time” friends. Are they really friends if they make me feel awful the next day? If the only time I hear from them is after 11:00 PM?

I love my new life and all that comes with it. I need to act responsibly and in charge and if that means turning my back on something that has been in my life and family as long as I was born? Heck yeah!!!! I will not allow someone of questionable character to waste my precious and valuable time. It is more satisfying to be with more grounded and real friends and people of respectability. These friends have no agenda except to be real and honest. So I mean no disrespect if I have to walk away from friends and family that no longer serve me. I have to - in order to have peace in the rest of my life.

(Another awesome man........listen Tim Miller)